To my Princess

Hi sweetheart, Very sorry for the long pause. Dad has loads to tell you. I had two weekend trips this March. One with college acquaintances and another with my school friends. Travel stories are saved for bedtime :D I was thinking about last year March. I was having 14-15 hours sleep a day just to escape my sudden breakdowns. Rest of the time awake, words I have heard, haunted me like a knife that bled me every single second. I was not being able to open my laptop for 15 days straight. I still remember every second of silence felt like years. I can not remember a single day passed when I have not cried to sleep. I won't stop if I start telling about those days. I know you will meet Debrup uncle and Shamik uncle one day, they know a lot about those days. If they were not there for me those days, maybe I would have drowned. I hope to tell you about my heartbreak someday. Back to this March. I just realized that I actually had some good laughs after a long long time. To be very honest...

Hello little lady, How are you, sweetheart? It's been long since I wrote you. Dad's life is standstill where it was. It's more stable than it was last year I would say. There are still some questions that bother me, every night when I try to sleep. Today I want to discuss few such with you dear. It's going to be hard to articulate but I will try. In brief, the questions are, what am I doing? What do I want? What do I plan? It's pitiful that I do not have any answer to this right now. I always had very definitive yet simple answers to these but don't know what happened lately. At times I feel I have lost myself completely. I always wanted to be happier with my peoples around. Academically, I had some goals. And about plan, I hope to tell you about that someday. When I go past and think about all these, it makes me sad. Like yes, I do a job now, that keeps me busy in weekdays and also I must admit that, had it been not there, I probably would have drowned. It give...